Some things you can’t doubt….

  This is a conversation I had with one of my best friends when discussing college and the recent disappointment of not getting into the music program there. If you are a music lover and this is what you want to do for your life, I suggest you read it.

 

Today

Did I tell you i didn't get into to Western's music program?

Report · 19:56

What?!

When did you find out?

I’m so sorry Bre

  (this is me! haha in new york actually, see earlier blog on NYC if confused )

Report · 19:57

I think Friday.

so I didn't get into Fullerton or Western.

Report · 19:57

But everything happens for a reason. Whatever college you end up going to, there is a purpose. Your prince charming will be at the college that you choose :)

Report · 19:58

I love you! Thank you for saying that!

I was thinking that myself. Now like I have said I have been becoming more religious and I was thinking about how God has a plan for me.

but I think I’m going to go to western

I’m think I’m going to work summer on auditions and then go back and audition again.

Report · 19:59

Don't worry Bre. my friend who wished he got into Berkeley came to Davis and then found his girlfriend and his passion for agriculture that he definitely could not have discovered in Berkeley because Berkeley doesn't have an agriculture program!

nice! :) everything happens for a reason :) what other colleges are you thinking of?

Report · 20:02

I think I will just go to western. It was weird when i realized that maybe I wasn't ready for western the minute i wanted to go there.

Wait so you got into western but not the music program?

Report · 20:04

Yes, I got into to western with a 4,000 dollar scholarship a year

Just not the music school .

Report · 20:13

well Bre its amazing! Son't limit yourself to music! college is the time to take classes you want to take and see if its interesting! I just found out o like chemistry hahaha :) might major in Chem! and I might double major with drama because I love my drama class!

you can audition but keep your options open!

you're going to love college

a new start

new everything

no one to limit you

you can do what you want to do

because you feel its best

and not because someone else says you should

everything is in your power

:)

Report · 20:14

If I want to go with the idea that maybe God has a plan for me then maybe he wants me to look at other subjects. But honestly I don't see that happening.

see and this is why. first of all, I have loved music all my life and I always said i wanted to be a singer. all the time. Every time I didn't get a solo in my elementary school choir, I cried.

Which was quiet often. Second of all, music has helped me through so much.I connect with it and like it was said in August Rush ( i don't know if you saw that movie) 'I believe in music the way some people in magic.’

Music has kept me sane.

thirdly, it has always gave me self confidence. I know I’m good. I’m not great but that's okay but i can't work at it. at the end of the day though it had always gave me self esteem

lastly, its who i am. L never feel more like myself then when I am on stage singing and performing. I feel like me. I feel like every time I sing, its the real me screaming out, "here I am"

the real me no one knows.

Report · 20:23

well maybe when you work in the summer for your audition, you will realize how much you love music! it does seem like you love music and that its your passion! imagine how much more you'll appreciate getting into the program the second time around! maybe you’re meant to learn how much you truly love music this summer! everything happens for a reason! i believe in you bre. a lot of people do :)

Report · 20:23

thank you :)

i think that might be so. that this is testing me to see how much i really want it.

its interesting because with in the first few seconds of getting the letter saying no to accepting me in the program I never once thought I wasn't capable.

I knew maybe I wasn't ready for the program but I never thought I couldn't do it.

and also I immediately go on the computer and emailed the school and asked how can I get in later on. what can I do.

I immediately looked up a new voice teacher. Trying to find a way to get better. It set a fire under my butt unlike anything else.

Report · 20:27

:) bre that is amazing. Its amazing that you know what you want to accomplish this summer. that you know how much you love music and want to pursue it :) maybe you wouldn't have come to these realizations if this hadn't happened! you know what you want :)

Report · 20:29

I want it more anything. Asking me to not sing is like asking me to not breath. insane and will only lead me to my death. melodramatic but its kinda the truth. not the part that it would lead me to my death.

but you don't have to think about breathing you just do that is what singing is to me.

Report · 20:30

:) that's so meaningful! you should re read that if you ever feel unmotivated :)

Report · 20:31

i think i might. :)

i know this sounds really corny but who cares.

Report · 20:31

no its amazing!

Agression, Hate, Love and Deterimination

Stan... Sing for the Moment... Lose Yourself... Mockingbird. Songs of aggression and hate and love and determination. All from one man who I consider to be one of the best artists of our time. Not because of his supreme rapping skills, but more because of his ability to express his emotions in an uncensored and real state. Like him, though not as dramatically, I have anger which is almost always set off from parents and what society tells me to be which has often conflicting ideas. And just like him, my preferred choice of letting out my emotions is through song. And within his songs, he presents ideas that I can relate to which I'm sure many people could. Especially in his "Sing for the Moment," I find a very interesting concept: Whether the media causes violence. A quote which I like very much is "They say music can... talk to you. But can it load a gun for you...?... Next time you assult a dude...Tell the judge it was my fault then I'll get sued." I liked this quote because it shows his intelligence in this unconventional way. But mostly I look him because... frankly... its the guy version of what Taylor Swift would be saying if she had a horrible childhood and on dope. So in other words amazing! But while mad at my parents I put it on and feel better because you know he's saying everything you wish you could say.

Art and its importance

For anyone one knows me, they say I'm very opinionated. This is a complement to me for too many people in this world has a lack of a backbone. I'm opinionated especially when it comes to art. I hold high standards of art and, even more so, peoples opinion of art. Music is my especial favorite version of art. I'm dedicated to my choir and I love discovering new and especially old music. So beware, if you feel courageous enough to start a discussion with me about music, that I will question everything you say. While I know music should never be taken too seriously, its an art form and its time we treat it like an art. For example, let's say the topic of Lady Gaga comes up; you express you dislike her very much. And when I ask you why and you say she's simply "weird," be prepared to explain further; unless you wish your comment to be discredited. Disliking someone because of their eccentric style is, in my opinion, juvinile. Then we direct the conversation to something different. Of course, I won't walk away, decide to dislike you, and express this dislike to my other friends. I suppose this steems from my stepdad's point of view of her. While most of the time I value his opinions, his view of Lady Gaga is very annoying and frankly, ignorant in his traditional way. But all the more I pity his view for one day he may release "Hey, her music ain't bad..." The moral of this I suppose is you should open your mind to other types of art. Why? Because art can give us a way to communicate with people for deep inside every song, or painting, or novel there is a common theme of love and acceptance that the world is trying so desperately to learn. And as we have learned in the past, only when we try new things and open our hearts can we truely learn love and acceptance.