Hmmmm... instead of writing my feelings as a FB status I decided to write my current feelings on this blog. Because I know if I were to write a status about how you don't care anymore, if you ever did at all, those who do care will start thinking I'm still not over you; which is contrary to my real feelings. Not at all. Actually I'm simply observing a common theme which I have experienced even proir to you; I must admit however I have never experienced it so fully as with you. But on to this theme that has lead me to write about it on my blog at 1:15 in the morning. It is this: Us, as people, look back and wonder what we did wrong. This is for many possible reasons but I think the two most probable is 1.) we hope to not make the mistake twice or 2.) because we get off on the pain. But real question is not why we do it, its why we think you would really care. Why would I want to go back and change things when I know it would make no difference? Because, while I may not know you as well as your fiance *chuckle, I know it won't make any difference to you; that I may see where I messed up, when I should have just kissed you instead of being a smart ass, when you motioned your index finger to come to you. Because you didn't care enough to tell me you didn't want me.

But most of all why do I keep saying "you"? Like you care enough to read my blog.